STAND BY ME

Like a G6 ~

2010-12-16T17:04:00.002+08:00

eh hiiii! its been long. Life's been pretty awesome. I have wonderful people around me! I'm living life to the fullest. Eventhough I've been backstabbed by some "wonderful" friends. HAH. this is life. But i dont give a fuck. You know why? Cos they're not the only friends that I have. There's more to life. No use crying over a friend who doesn't understand you and talks shit behind your back. Especially when those stuffs they say aren't true.

I WANNA SEE HOW FAR YOU CAN GO BITCH. I'll wait till you test my patience and one day, you'll get it. I'll make sure you cry till your eyes bleed. LOL. this is fake ah. Sorry I'm just angry. And DISAPPOINTED. Oh wells. How's everyone? Hope everyone's doing fine,yo!

The year is coming to an end and I cant wait for the beginning of next year. Hopefully my life would be better next year. Moving house and stuffs ~ so yeah.

Lastly, I love my family, (dad mom sis) and my wonderful friends! thanks for being there when i needed someone and always making me happy. I dont know what I'd do without them. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH <3

okay, gotta go. Blog soon I guess? my blog is dead hehehe. Malas already.

BYEBYE <3

Gettin' over you.

2010-07-28T20:39:00.002+08:00

Okay, this is my 100th post.

So much things has happened. Good and bad things. Some made me weak but at the same time made me even stronger. Everything happens for a reason. But what if we don't want them to happen? It takes two hands to clap. I've done all I can but it still goes down to the same old thing. So what should I do? The answer is, I don't know. I'll never understand. What else do you want me to do? What's the use of saying sorry if you don't realise your mistake and keep repeating it? Might as well just forget it. I've been trying my best to move on but you keep pulling me back. what am i to you actually? You know you'll regret sooner or later. But what is this? Sigh. I seriously am very upset and disappointed. nuff said.

About two more weeks to the fasting month. I'm very excited for raya this year! Well I dont think i'll be getting raya money this year since i'm already 19 T.T

This year's colour for raya clothes is RED AND GREEN! yayyyy! it was all my idea actually. So its okay if my parents want some colour :p usually we only wear the same colour on the first day which is black. hehehehe.

So many people are pissing me off nowadays. Especially those "macam understand" people. Some of them wanna act like some big shot, some wanna act as if he/she is "unique" in a way that everyone else is following some other people trend. Come on, isn't that common? Everything in this damn world. I can hardly see anything unique. So why bother? Just fucking shut your trap. __

And to you woman, stop flirting. I mean, don't be too desperate alright! I know you want a guy from the "scene". It's okay to have a lot of guy friends or talk to guys. But flirting? you know the meaning of flirting right? everyone knows the differeces about being friendly and flirting. All i can say is, stop it. I'm sure them guys are irritated in a way. And just so you know, guys detest girls who are to desperate. So yeah, think about it. PEACE!

I'm looking forward to more gigs! Cant wait for the one on 7th! LR's the last band and they're bringing back aixz and joe for the night to perform AFA! yeaaaah.

I'll be back on ... not sure. Lazy to blog. Goodbye ;)

No.

2010-07-14T14:03:00.002+08:00

Nope,i'm not taking the risk. But i guess,time
will tell. I'm always the one taking the first step,so i
guess this time it's your turn. I'm
not always gonna give in.

bed rock ~

2010-07-04T07:59:00.003+08:00

oh hi hi hi hi. errr, nothing. bye!

In my head

2010-06-16T03:23:00.000+08:00

I love feeling this way. Been long since i felt this way. I wish this feelings could stay as long as i want it to be. (: You're the only exception.

Down to earth

2010-06-10T03:33:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY~ A lot of shits been happening but as usual i dont give a fuck cos this is something not worth my time. Well, im contented enough with my life now :)

and ooh, (insert name) is so cuteeeeeeee. cina boy :)))

LASTLY,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARHAN AKA BONCET :)

hope you like the suprise made by your dearest girlfriend just now.

Aku masih nak kuaci kayyy! and i owe your KFC! See youuuuuuu.

Kay lah thats it. Bye!

hello, you're a fucking retard.

2010-06-04T03:31:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
well it's been damn long since i last blogged! i don't have the time to do so cos i've got better things to do.

1) I've been very fine. Been a month since the break up and i'm stronger than ever. Perfectly moved on :) I don't give a shit anymore. friends? Yup but never ever gonna be back together with someone like him anymore,no. I've already wasted 2years of my youth and i'm not gonna waste anymore time.

2) I fucking love my friends and family so much :) they're the most awesome people in my life. The ones who'll always be there for me whenever i'm down and i thank each and everyone of them. Without them i won't be this happy and enjoying life. Like they always say, this is what i deserve. Happiness.

3) it's amazing how someone who used to be so close to you, change so much. It's either they became a slut, a fucking two faced bitch or someone who forget bout their friends as soon as they found new ones. It's just funny to me somehow. Anyways, tak perlu eh nak cakap "I'm not afraid of you and your gang" ABEH DELETE. KENTAL NAK MAMPOS. Why cant you just be fucking mature about this and dont fucking act like you're some kind of big shot. Not happy, why not we settle it? Eeeeeeee pls ah takmo kental! (after this if i receive spams on my tagboard, confirm its you hahahahahahahah!)actually, fuck it, I DONT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE. :) do what you think is right. Just fucking forget about everything and imma forget bout your existence in my life. :) don't fucking talk bout friendship when you don't know the true definition of it.

Wah, what a fucked up post. I feel like a lame asshole HAHAHAHAHAHA! this is what happens after not blogging a proper post for so long. Well at least I blogged!
Ah, thats pretty much all. Goodbye! :)

over

2010-05-04T02:35:00.002+08:00

it's over, once again. i'm gonna be fine. :) maybe he's not the one for me. i'm trying to be strong.

i still got my friends with me. i love you,my loved ones.

changes

2010-04-09T16:56:00.002+08:00

things change, people change. what to do, this is life.
in my whole life, i've never experience people backstabbing me. until, september 2009. someone very close to me, a friend did something fucking bad behind my back. Like woah, fuck up right? And like recently, another friend(close friend) talk behind my back. Insulted me. And never realising that it's a bad thing. Still acting like nothing happened, acting nice to me. Whatsoever it is, I don't give a damn anymore. I know I'm nice. But why take advantage of me? I'm a very patient girl. But when I get annoyed, there's something about you that pisses me off. Alah, whatever. Just do whatever you wanna do. Cos, as as far as i'm concern, I'VE NEVER done anything bad towards you. See, it pays to be nice. But i'm staying the way I am. The patient, nice enaa. Cos i know my friends love me for that. :)

Anyway, my life's awesome. I've got an awesome boyfriend, I've got awesome friends whom I can call, my family. I've got awesome parents, I've got an awesome lil sis. What more can i ask for? And for those people who've got issues with me, FUCK OFF. don't act nice to me. If you don't like me, say it straight to me you TWO FACED MOTHERFUCKER. ;D

ahh, right. I can't wait for saturday and sunday. And boyfriend's POP today! Yeaaah, he got one week leave after that. Yes, imma happy girl! *WIDE SMILE!*

kay, i'm done.

2010-03-23T14:46:00.004+08:00

Hiiii. I don't know what to blog so i'm gonna post some pictures! HAHAHA. bye.

SELL YOUR FUCKING BODY BITCH!

OMG HELLO!

2010-03-07T04:42:00.004+08:00

Hi, I'm finally BACK! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA just for now maybe? It's been long! Life's been fucking awesome. If you don't know, I'm back with my dearest MARK! Life's been awesome since. And all my friends made it even better.

Well well well, there's so much issues going on. What can I say? No comment. Cos I'm not involve so I'm not gonna interfere. That's not me. WANNA WHO HERE WHO THERE. Everything also wanna know. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. (INSIDE JOKE,only the closest one knows)

I'm missing my best friends very much. Really hoping to meet up with them soon. And im looking for a new job now. ANY RECOMMENDATION? let me know please! Heh. And oh oh, I'm moving house by APRIL I guess. Wheeehee. Happy? Kinda. But I'm gonna miss my place! I grew up there. Hmm. But never mind, I'm gonna experience a new place and I'm so gonna decorate my new house when I move to one. Yayyy.

Currently I'm at admiralty with the usuals at Nash's place. Awesome. Everyone's having fun. And it's a SUNDAY again. My boyfriend's gonna book in again. WAH I'M DAMN SAD. Can't spend that much time since he's in NS! POP cepat please. If can ORD sekali HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I love my life. I'm pretty much contented with it. What more could I ask for?

And I'm really hoping to continue my studies. I'm 19 this year. Time to start thinking of my future. Kinda worried though. I don't wanna be a bummer please. But it's okay, I will study soon I swear. And this time I'm gonna study real hard and not dissapoint my parents.

I really hope my family will be real happy soon. Not have to worry bout money stuffs anymore and all that. I hope all this crisis will end soon. I love my parents and my lil sis a lot.

I had fun at boyfriend's advanced birthday celebration earlier on. And this is a special post for my dearest friends.

1) Nizam Bro
I'm gonna miss you so damn much bro! Please take care of yourself when you're inside. All the best for NS okay? I'm gonna miss seeing you being so retarded everyday. I'm gonna miss seeing you with a milk tea bottle almost everytime. I'm gonna miss smelling your hair. I'm gonna miss your KUAT NAK MAMPOS perfume. I'm gonna miss your FANGS! I'm gonna miss everything bout you. Especially YOU! Good luck. See you my brother in arms! <3

2) Afiq
Although I just know you, you've been an awesome friend that came to my life. You made me laugh so much each time with your "giler" and your CUTE laughter(macam carebear) HAHAHAHAHAHA. Take care of yourself too. Shall see you sooooon PERUT GILERRRRRRRRRRRR. xD

3) Rahman
HI SHYBOY. i'm gonna miss you and your shyness. Tak habis habis tersengih sengih. Nice right the song I sang to you just now? HAHAHAHAHA. You've been awesome too. Take care and I can't wait to see you and your shyness sooon HAHAHAHAHA! Bye shyboy :)

And also, HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY(9thMarch) MY DEAR MARK. 19 YEARS OLD ALREADY STILL WANNA DO THE FACE AND ALL :P you know what I mean. And also, HAPPY 2 YEARS 5 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO YOU(8th March) I love you so much. I hope this time we can really work things out. But for now, I know I'm very happpy to have you in my life.

I guess that's about it. I've said enough. I'll be back when I'm back HAHAHAHAHA.
Okay bye! I shall post up some picture so enjoy 'em!

(I'VE BEEN LAUGHING A LOT THIS FEW DAYS. IT'S GOOD TO SEE ENAA HAPPY ISN'T IT?)

HAPPY :)

2010-01-28T17:07:00.002+08:00

Hey hello! It's been long isn't it? My blog is deaddddd. Well, my life's been awesome. Thanks to my friends. :) I finally got a job. At carrefour. Cashier. YAYYY MONEY! Hehehe. Nothing much to say. But well, I'm very happy. So don't worry. :)

I MISS YOU , ....

At the end of the day, you're still the one. The only one in my heart. <3

what hurts the most

2010-01-10T21:02:00.002+08:00

it's hurting me. I don't know what's god tryna tell me. I had enough of crying, i don't wanna start all over again. I don't wanna keep on being sad. What must i do now? I just would like to thank my dearest friends for being there for me. thanks for the advices. Thanks for consoling me. But right now, i'm just confused with my feelings. ):

seriously,what did i do to deserve this.

ammarah munchkins cinnamon

2010-01-08T02:52:00.002+08:00

i read your blog darling. Thanks for everything and i can't believe i actually cried. But thanks anyway for always being there. I love you very much! And thanks to darrell brother, nash brother, and andyson for hugging me and telling me to stop crying and giving me advice. I love you all so so so much. And not to forget, i love all my friends who had been there for me all along, especially my bestfriends! -Hugs all of youuuu*

make a change

2010-01-08T02:19:00.002+08:00

i just realize how bad i've been as a daughter. I'm sorry mom and dad for keeping you worried for me,always. I know i'm a girl. I'm growing up. I'm 19 this year. You just have to trust me. I know i've been rebellious last time. But it's all because you don't trust me. I know i'm still a child in your eyes. even though i got my freedom now, i know you both are still very worried. But why give me freedom but you both are still shouting and scolding everytime i come home late. Sigh. After the long lecture i got from dad, i feel sad. I don't hate you dad. I just want you to trust me. Even when i was working last time at tcc, you also don't believe that i was working. But whatever it is, i love you dad. I love mom and sis too. Once again, i'm sorry. )':

I hate it when I miss you

2010-01-03T06:00:00.002+08:00

Oh hi, happy new year!

It's only the beginning of 2010 but yet my friends/me/family are having problems.Wah, damn fucked up can. Like amy would say, (Nao you think you funny la) HAHAHAHA. But well, I'm still happy with stuffs. Even the littlest things that happened can put a smile on my face. As you know, I'm a happy girl. :D And Enaa will stay that way. Heh.

And yes, I'm moving house by like March or April and I'm pretty much excited. But well, I'll miss my old house. Wah, been staying there for like 12 years. And I seriously missed my two best friends. Congrats to Shaa baby! <3

I'm hoping this year will be fucking great year for me and for all of us! I'm pretty much contented with life. What more could I ask for? I think the only thing I'm asking for is that special someone. Well someday, somehow it'll happen I guess. I just have to wait. And yes I still do ...... Ahh nehmind. Some of you know. Those who doesn't know, SHUT IT and DON'T ASK. HAHAHAHA!

Alright I think I'm done here. Shall blog soon. Daddy's bonus coming. How bout your parents? Excited YES I AM! :D

beginning.

2009-12-31T05:21:00.002+08:00

Wah, it's 31st december. The very last day of 2009. A lot of good and bad things happened this year. But in the end, I'm still fucking happy with my life. I've learned to appreciate people more. I've learned to never give up even though i'm on the verge of breaking down. I've come to know how much my family care for me and whatever they do, is always for my own good. I love you, mom, dad, sis(farhana) I love you best friend(s), Shaa and Yana. I love you LYSSA'S REQUIEM AND FAMILY. I love every single one of you who have always been there for me. Seriously I'm very thankful to each and everyone of you. My life's been fucking great with your presence. I can't even describe how happy and thankful am I to have such awesome people in my life.

2010, I'm really hoping for it to be a great year for me and all of us. New year, new beginning.

Thanks 2009, I had an awesome time with you. And welcome 2010. :)

Happy new year people. Have fun laterrrrrrr!

New year

2009-12-28T20:03:00.001+08:00

woah, new year's coming soon! are you excited? yes I am!
I can't fucking wait for a brand new year.
Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010!

epic

2009-12-23T17:10:00.004+08:00

Mark's coming back tomorrow! CHEY MACAM BARU BALIK PERANG PULAK. Hahahahaha. we're gonna fetch him tomorrow. And sighhhhhhh, complications everywhere.

and my pay, when are you gonna come? FASTER LAH BODOH. ORANG DAH TAKDE DUIT NIE. ):

at the end of the day you're still the one

and I don't like to be single because i tend to have random crush.

BODOHHHHHH.

down

2009-12-17T04:09:00.003+08:00

just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me.

ohmygod. i really ....

nehmind, next time.

Haven't met you yet.

2009-12-14T15:48:00.003+08:00

LIFE'S GOT SO MUCH TO OFFER. Yes, it's true. I'm never giving up no matter how tough it is. I've got family, bestfriend(s), FTW'S and all my friends to stand by me. And I love every single one of you. <3

It's great that I'm looking forward to every single day of my life. I'm happy, definately happier than before.

As for mark, WE MISS YOU TOO MARK! Don't cry anymore yup? Don't feel lonely cos we're always here for you. We love you mark and we're all waiting for you to book out. we'll thon as much as you want! <3 WE, LOVE YOU FUCKING MUCH. :D

I'm looking forward to wednesday. Will be meeting dharsh first before I proceed to Shaa's house. SLEEPOVER! YAY! :D Friday my son's(azneil) gonna be performing at blackhole! and we're going. woooooohoooo! And on Saturday, it's AMY'S, AZNEIL AND DARRELL'S BIRTHDAY! Yaaaaaay I can't wait! :D wheeeeheeee!

This feeling's taking control of me. What should I do. ):

Blog sooon!

THEM.

2009-12-10T12:25:00.004+08:00

Life is short, appreciate and enjoy it while you can. For this 18 years that I've been alive, I've gone through so much. Be it bad or good. This is life. Sometimes you're on top and sometimes you're at the very bottom where you can give up anytime. But what i learned is, never give up. Just know that you'll always have your friends and family who will always stand by you no matter what happens. You can always count on them. I really thank my friends and family for always being there. Mom, dad, sis, best friend(s), my group of family and all my friends. Really thanks. I've been sad for the past few months but I'm really happy now and that I'm always looking forward to everyday and it's all because of you. The only reason I'm happy. From the bottom of my heart, I'd like to thank each and everyone of you. I really love you guys so much and I don't know how would i survive w/o you people. <3

Mark, you're going NS tomorrow. All the best to you. Sorry for pissing you off yesterday but it's just our way to suprise you. Do take care when you're inside. We're all gonna miss you very much. I can't believe you're going NS. Fast right? Haha. Well, all I can say is don't forget me yah. We've known each other for so long, gone through so much together for the past two years we've been together and I'm just glad that we're still friends. Take care botakmannnnnn! <3

Okay, i'll blog soon. :)

Realise.

2009-12-10T11:25:00.002+08:00

If you don't fucking know, YOU'RE GETTING ON MY FUCKING NERVES. Kiwaaaaaak! BERBUAL BAIK BAIK BOLEH KAN! GO FIGURE LAH SIAL!

Don't buy me with your words.

2009-12-07T17:24:00.003+08:00

Hi, it's been long since i last posted a proper post right. so yeah, Life's been pretty much awesome. i love my family, bestfriends, my group of family and all my friends. they're the reason why i'm happy and not giving up on life. i just would like to thank each and everyone of you for all the things you guys had done for me, basically due to the family problem i'm having now. especially to my bestfriends and also my bro, darrell. i think i've trouble you the most. thanks for paying for the gig tickets and stuffs. i owe you so much bro. thank you. <3 sometimes i do miss the feeling of being loved. but i guess all i need now are my friends and family. as for my ex boyfriend, mark. do take care of yourself while you're in NS yup? seeing how you've improved and what you had become tilll now, really make me proud of you. you know i've always been proud of you since last time. we've been together for almost two years and it's really great to see how successful and happy you are now with or w/o me. stay happy! remember, we're still good friends. we've gone through so much together and i don't want to throw it all away just cos we're no longer a couple. all the best, mark! for FTW, i fucking love you guys so much. :) best friends, thanks for everything. you guys are still the best people in my lifeeeee. :D and the most important people in my life, family ILY <3

okay i guess that's pretty much it.
i'll blog sooonn :)

chin up, baby.

2009-11-30T19:00:00.002+08:00

I think I've done linking everyone! wooohoooooo. I can't wait for this wednesday! singapore idolllll. i will be at the moshpit as usual! and this thursday's gig at blackhole. yaaaaaay. friday will be going jobhunting with shaa again I guesssss. My godddd i really need a job. shitttoooo. alright, wait for my next update yah? byeeee

take me as i am.

2009-11-30T16:51:00.002+08:00

oh god it's been damn long. i've been good. life's been awesome. eventhough there's some problems now and then but I'm alright. Thanks to my dearest friends and family. Gigs were awesome. Outing with bestfriends and some other good friends and besties. being single's kinda okay. i'm still happy! But i tend to feel like crap sometimes ): sigh i wish i could stop my sad feelings and just be happy all the time. I guess i'll be blogging some other time. take care! :D

2009-11-03T18:51:00.002+08:00

Whaaaaaaat's life like right now? I don't know. But I guess it's pretty good. Things happens, I just have to accept it. I pretty much don't care anymore. Why should I? My friends make me happy. Alif BFFL, Shaa and Yana BFFL, Salam BFFL and all my good friends. I thank adib for being there for me when I'm sad last night. Hahaha thanks abg sachok cute. :D LOL. okay I've got not much to say now. I'll be back sooooon. :D

Time has got a way of taking back, everything we thought we had.

2009-10-21T18:58:00.006+08:00

Hello people/ It's been long yea? Yeah life's been great minus the fact that I broke up with my two years boyfriend, Mark Anthony Fernandez. First few days of the break up was disastrous. But am okay now. I have to move on and be strong. That's more great things in life that I could look forward to. As for mark, we're still friends. In fact, we're best friends. I moved on, and he too has moved on. Besides the fact that he wanted to be single, I actually realised that we come from a different religion, plus we know that we both can't convert to each other's religion. Oiii mark, better find a girl with the same religion as you so that you won't have to go through the same thing again. Yeaaah, we're cool now. I'm contented enough with life right now. I know I have my family, best friends, friends and other people who care for me. I know a lot of people are shocked that Mark and I broke up, but well, things do happen for a reason. I'm just glad that am pretty much fine now and not emoooo anymore! Alright, now my mission is to look for a job. Earn money money money! Going to look for jobs soon :D Plus, am gonna apply for Beauty therapy course at ITE Simei next year! Whoooohooo! Happy okay. Can't wait to study again, plus this time, i'm gonna take a course that I'm actually interested in, Yay me!

I miss BFFL, besties, friends, Lyssa's requiem+michelle+monfortboys and my old friends. Let's hang out soon guys. For the O level's candidate, all the best yaww!

I have to meet eshammmm sooon. Mr teddybear. Hahaha

And also, Iman! 500 days of summer! I wanna watch. We shall wait till we're both free yah :D

Okay I guess am done ranting. Blog some other time. When will that be? So long faithful readers! <3

NOW THAT I'M SINGLE, AM FREE AND I CAN ENJOY AS MUCH AS I WANT W/O NOBODY STOPPING ME. YAY :D

Okay , goodbye!

and I really thank my ALIF BFFL for everything. <3

Drowning in your love.

2009-09-29T03:30:00.002+08:00

I miss my baby badly. Period-

Hi, had a great day w Dharsh and BFFL, alif. Accompanied Dharsh to study at northpoint, alif tagged along. Dharsh left around 7plus. And alif and I proceed to Admiralty. Hang out outside his house+he permed my hair. It's nice! I think am gonna perm it soon. Bored w straight hair la. Haha experimental sikit. :D

Okay I guess thats all. Blog tomorrow!

Real eyes realized real lies.

2009-09-28T00:58:00.004+08:00

Am worried, insecure, angry, devastated, confused, curious. Why? Am not sure myself. But my heart is beating fast. I feel like beating someone up. Urggghhh.

Fuck you.

When your heart speaks, take good notes.

2009-09-25T17:18:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGIRL FAREENA! :D ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY WHILE IT LAST AND I'LL SEE YOU SOON. Dah 4th time ni Enaa wish. Suke?! Haha. I love you babygirl! <3

My day was absolutely fine till ...
(insert name) > Hi cutez seh u. nk hangout nari?i boring pat uma sowang2.
Me > huh? What are you talking about? And, what the hell is sowang?
Him > I sowang pat uma. u tk keje nari?
Me > Am not even working. Sorry, be right back. Helping my mom buat kuih.
Him > okiez shayang. muackz.
I quickly close the conversation and blocked him!
Knn ccb! Hahah, perangai stop it siah! Faggot. -.- Abeh aku macam faham buat kuih. Lol.

Irritating to the maximum. Oh wells, my day was dull, but fine. Just doing the random things I usually do. Facebook-ing. Msn-ing. Myspacing, Youtubing and stuffs like that. Mom's making dinner and Sis's sleeping. Dad and bro are working. Same goes to my boyfriend. Tomorrow there's a gig at FAD MEDIA! I should be going! :D

I can't wait for Raya outing with peeps! My blog is not interesting. I always don't have a clue of what to blog about. \m/

Bye!

Passion for music.

2009-09-24T02:18:00.002+08:00

Had absolute fun today. :D Singapore Idol was awesome. Made some new friends. Haha, kecoh habis. 0.0 Faizal isa's cute! <3 And I thank Mae Sta maria, a lot for the tickets. :D love you Mae! <3 Plus, it's dissapointing that Slytra was the first one to be eleminated from the spectaculars. It's okay syltra. Your journey won't end here right? Keep going! Adib and his friends keep saying you got a nice and unique voice, and it is true! <3 Will be supporting you! Will visit you at the bar you're performing at. :D Got to meet all the idols. BUT, didn't get to capture any pictures. Reason being, Boyf didn't ask me for any batteries for his camera. -.- Grr. Never mind. Next week I shall take pictures with the Idols! <3 Only got to take a picture with tabitha, which is in her friend's camera. How should I get it? Haha. Seriously, I love this year's contestants. They're all so friendly. Especially Charles! Haha , he's really cute and nice. "STICH"! :D

Okay, that's all. And I can't wait for raya outing w best friends on I don't know when. And raya outing with Lyssa's requiem on wednesday perhaps? :D And with all my friends. Nak keluar raya, ajak tau. :D

Love, Enaa.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

2009-09-20T14:58:00.002+08:00

Ker-chingggggg! Just got my first duit raya from my siblings, my two kakak and my brother. :D thanks ! :DDDDD

Going out soon, after this gonna apologize to mom and dad. woo, gonna be dramatic for a while later. Tears are gonna be shed later on. Hmmm, cry first. then wear make up! ahahah. :D

HAVE FUN PEOPLE!

Fun fun fun!

2009-09-20T03:01:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO MY DEAREST BOYFRIEND, FRIENDS AND FAMILY.
Forgive me for my wrong doings and if I ever hurt you in any way. Am just like any of you, am not perfect. So I'm sorry for the wrong things I've done. Halalkan makan minum Enaa yer. Thank you. :)

And baby, I'm sorry bout today. I know I hurt you a lot. I didn't meant to scold you like that. I know am at fault. I was really touched for the tears you shed for me. ): I'm sorry for making you cry. I fear of losing you too baby. But, let's not think too much bout the future alright? We'll just keep holding on. Because we know we love each other and we can't imagine our lives w/o each other. We're so used with having each other around all the time. I love you , sincerely. Very much in love with you sayang. And though you don't celebrate raya, we shall go for raya outing with my friends and also your bandmates/friends alright? And baby, forgive me for my wrongs. I know I've hurt you sometimes, but I don't mean it. I love you, and I'll do anything to make you happy. I pray for our relationship every night. I'll always love you, no matter what happens. <3

Okay am done with ranting. Gonna hit the sheets soon. Very sleepy, but excited for later! Wheeee. Duit raya/kuih raya/makanan raya/ HERE I COME! LOL. :D

Bye!

2009-09-17T02:23:00.002+08:00

They're great! <3 Love albert posis and mark mejia! <3

Had a great day today. ;D Met baby, he went shopping. New shoe, clothes and pants. Is he a happy boy or what. Haha. Soon after, met Yana and Irwan! Yana's birthday. :D Went to play pool/arcade. Went back round 10plus. And hang out w baby at amk for awhile and went home round 12/ Love baby so much. Random/fun day. At least got to meet my bestfriend , Yana. Can't wait for the next outing along with Shaa and zu(miss them a lot!) Zu's in NS now. Grr botak la dier. When he book out, hopefully we'll all go out. Triple date again? I love you guys so much.
Plus I miss Lyssa's Requiem. (Amy, Joe,Aqul, Faiz,)+(Aznil,Don, SyafiqKassim,Chris,Michelle). Outing soon peeps! Hari Raya's in a few days time. All set. Clean house, Raya clothes + more more. Only raya shoes! Getting them tomorrow I guess! Anyways, watch the video on facebook. Dog killers! Fuckszx them! So depressing man. Grr I could just cry! And now I miss amber and vonzy(baby's dogs).

Nothing much to rant about, I guess I'll just shut up now. Bye world!

L.O.V.E

2009-09-16T12:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU DEAREST BESTFRIEND! Hope your wishes come true, and enjoy your birthday while it last. And all the best for the future baby. Dah legal age seh. :D I love you very much. Thanks for being such a great bestfriend. Love you and shaa so much. <3 See you later if can? Mwah!

Cliche

2009-09-14T15:07:00.003+08:00

Chatted with zy and chris on facebook awhile ago. Now both of them are offline and here I am feeling bored. Grr. Baby's playing drums! He's so excited about finally finishing fixing his drums in his room. He's gonna like talk to me at around 6. But sadly I wont be online till 6. I have to clean up my house. Plus my stomach hurts! Menses la. Grr. I'll be online at night I guess.

Nothing much to say. Meeting baby on wednesday! <3 Love him much.

Fun.

2009-09-14T02:16:00.003+08:00

(OLD PICTURE!)

FUN day today. Went Geylang with family and bought baju raye and stuffs. And after that hang out with boyf, Amy, Joe and Don at sengkang. Amy drops! Joe drops! Mark drops! Skateboarding! AHAHA. dropping day. And mark's dad fetch us from sengkang to home. Fun day. <3

I miss the old times with zyzy and arfiz and solehan and adib and azmie and more more more. I miss those times, really!

I miss SHAA AND YANA!
Meet soon babies.

Find work after raye!
School next year! (ITE, again I guess)
Thats all.

Blog more tomorrow! DAMN TIRED!

One and the same

2009-09-10T23:19:00.003+08:00

I officially love my life. It's great, eventhou I quited my job because of the unreasonable manager who treats me unfairly. Haha. I don't mind, really. You'll get your retribution. I'm malay so what? Racist uh? Fuck laaaa. So dumb. Why laa, why not they let me work at other place in the first place? Why bring me to somewhere where there's chinese workers. I don't mind actually, cus am not racist. Just that they treat me so unfairly. Make me work on weekdays, cus the others are all schooling and I'm the one working everyday on weekdays. And when I ask for off on SATURDAY, it looks like a big deal? Oh gosh. I don't see my boyf's manager doing that to him. We work in the same company but I got the worst outlet! GOSH! So angry. It's okay. I'll have to find another job! Grr. So not eay laaaaa! Ish never mind. Like I said I love my life! Cus I have the greatest people around me. Family, Boyf, BFFL(s)(SHAA&YANA+ALIF+SALAM),Lyssa's Requiem and other good friends who cares bout me. Thanks for always being there. :)

I can't wait for Saturday! Outing day! With Yana, my boyf and don't know who else. Hope Shaa's coming. It's like my first saturday after 2 or 3 weeks of not meeting my babygirls! It's gonna be fun. We're going geylang I guess!
And on Sunday! Outing with family to Geylang. Buying tons of stuffs for raya! :) And my Hari raya clothes for sure! Heh.

Alright blog soon!
Bye!

Sweetest love.

2009-08-12T18:20:00.004+08:00

hey hey hey how you doing!

Its been a while. Life's been pretty much as usual. Saturday was fun. A day with baby, Shaa&Zoohighree! And Yana and Irwan.Triple date yahhh. We played pool. And Shaa and her boyf keep laughing at me and mark. Cus of the way we talk or fight over the smallest stuffs. Thanks eh shaaaaa. We're like the clown of the day lah. Hahahaha. I had a great time though.:D
Meet again darlings! <3 and im missing kelly! Met her the other day after work. We ate at my work place. Yummmy pasta! But the beef ball gratin tasted like some herbal beef. Hahaha. Looking forward to eat the new food when I have the moneyhhh! And yeaa, I got two TCC scratch and win card. A tcc premium coffee and a 10dollars dining voucher! Gonna use it soon.At other outlet! Hhah.

Boyf's currently at my house now, sleeping.Im using his laptop. Grrrr. Hahaha. Nothing much to say! Blog soon when I have the time. Been working.And it's kinda tiring.

So long sisters/brothers!

durhh.

2009-06-22T19:36:00.002+08:00

what have I been up to? nothing much. Yesterday was Father's day. awesome day. althou i was really sick. Body temperature went up to 38.6! Woah. scared much! Everyone panic. Took panadol. and went to sleep for a few hours. Woke up, felt so much better. Temperature went down to 36.8! Lucky enough. And also crazyyy. My body temperature kept going up and down. Grrr. Now just having a bad sore throat. Been drinking lots of water and always feeling like peeing! Grrr.

I miss my Shaa and Yana and my Alif! Meet soon babies!
Thats pretty much it.Nothing much to talk about.

Grrrr. I love my baby so much.(cliche much!)

Hand me a lily.

2009-06-15T15:25:00.002+08:00

Hi ! Things has been going really well for the past few days. I've been really happy and excited. Thanks to my two best friends, Yana and Shaa and not to forget, my dearest boyfriend and the most important ones,my dearest family. They all really make me so happy. Saturday was ultimately fun! Outing with my best friends, along with boyfriend. Took pictures, catch up with each other. And .. fucking drunk! Hahaha. It's fun thou.The first time doing something like this with my two girls. Heh ! Let's get high babies! Boyfriend was our photographer fo the day. I'm glad he's getting along really well with my two girls. Thanks girls, for getting along with him too.I'm really happy. Tomorrow? I can't wait! Hope Shaa could make it. And hopefully I will have the money to go. Grrrr. Sunday was fun too.Spending time with family. I could not ask for more. Watch tv and talk with my family. I wrote 2 songs yesterday! Altogether I have seven original songs! Yeaaa! All the other songs are already done. Boyfriend make the rythm whilst I make the lyrics! I could be a songwriter? Yes I can! Woohoo.Never really thought I could write a song actually. Started few months back.But mainly all the songs are acoustic la. :) So yea. Boyfriend's having a hard time now. trying to figure out a rythm for the new song that I wrote. Haha. I wished I could play guitar! Or at least have a keyboard so that I could make my own rythm! Haha. Should I go for guitar lessons? Hahahaha. Damn me.

Okay not much more to say. Update more soon! I love my dearest family, boyfriend, bestfriends and friends!

Get ready get set don't go .

2009-06-11T14:08:00.003+08:00

Hi . A lot of things been happening lately. It feels like things happened in just seconds. My entire life is flashing before my eyes. Hmm. Financially broken, need a fucking damn job. It's hard to find a job nowadays. Recession everywhere, and economic crisis. Gaah. I think I shouldn't be too choosy anymore. Just take any job that can provide me money and a peace of mind. Boyfriend too,needs a job. Although he's going fo NS soon, which is I don't know when. Maybe July or October? Hmm. anyhoo , going admiralty tomorrow. Esofi's birthday yaww! I'm so gonna meet Alif and the rest! Miss them fucking much much much!! And oh, boyfriend's been dissapointed lately due to some reasons. Cheer up baby. I'm sure things will be fine. Daddy(mark's dad) was angry and dissapointed as well. Of course right, it's his son dignity we're talking about. Things really happen so fast. One minute, things were totally fine. another minute things were in mess. Life's tough, yeah. Life's gonna hand you all kinds of stuffs. So just be patient and accept everything. It's funny really. When baby and I were on the way home yesterday night, we saw this phrase "it doesn't matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop". Haha. We're like laughing tremendously. Cos it's so similar to the problem my boyfriend's having. And that phrase is so true. Upon all that, I'm really looking forward to a great life and future. I hope things will go just fine. Starting to be optimistic and think positively. Thanks to my family, boyfriend and all the friends who have given me hope in life and to achieve a better tomorrow. <3

I love my family, boyfriend, bestfriends, friends and everyone who has been so caring for me.
Thanks a whole lot.

<3

Take care folks!

Undeniable.

2009-06-02T18:33:00.003+08:00

Halaaa!

Th past few days have been awesome. Just feeling a little tired thou. Not much sleep. Anyhoos, yesterday Ijan and Hunny went to boyfriend house. Along with me too fo sho. Had absolute fun. Hunny's such a nice girl. And a pretty one I might say. I like her eyes. So beautiful! Meet soon again Hunny baby! Took some pictures before they went back. Ijan! Take care of yourself okay. I'll see you soon! And hunny, hope things will be fine fo you. Do take care too. Althou we just knew each other, I'm sure we'll be good friends. I'll be there if you ever need me. :)

Miss Alif! Miss Sulaimi! Miss Shaa and Yana! Miss the KSH crew! Meet soon pretty please. ):

Enjoy th picthasssss! Haha.

Lotsa love from me.

boom boom pow.

2009-05-30T18:55:00.002+08:00

halo! Bored . Yesterday was a blast with baby,my sis and sulaimi. Even thou we all kinda fall asleep round 3am. And sulaimi went home round 7 am . Around 9plus , me, baby and sis went to amk central . ate at amk hub . Sis went home. And I went back to baby's house . Play computer and watch tv .

Nothing much? Enjoy th picturess!

cliche.

2009-05-29T17:46:00.002+08:00

oh what an old picture! and (what stupid face I got there)
uhuh . Had an ultimately big fight with my man , a while ago . gaaaah. random-ism. Will it happen again? Fosho!! Its okay . Just have to bear with it . What's a relationship w/o fights right?

Anyway .. I'm waiting for 6.30 . Fetching sis from home to here . sulaimi will be here by the time we reach back here . Just hope he have CIGERATTES. God um dying down here . HAHAHAH . Shall quit smoking soon I guess?(mcm phm) punaniiii .

Second post fo th day ! Be back lata for the 3rd and final post, perhaps?
And someone's laughing uproariously downstairs . Crazy guy , I guess? I'm gonna linger around fo awhile now . (while waiting fo him to wake up?)

alrighty . goodbye!

Love is all that matters.

2009-05-29T11:24:00.003+08:00

Hey . Currently at boyfriend house. He's banging his drums and here I am blogging. Anyhoo, prepaid's still low, babies! Topping up by tomorrow perhaps. Do wait for me okay. I miss Alif so much! I'll meet him soon when I have the money. Same goes to Yana and Shaa too. Sulaimi's coming sooon! We're tonning! Along with my sis later. I miss tonning at admiralty! ): How I wish Alif is here! Can't wait to meet him as soon as I have the money. Grrr. I went thru quite a number of blog a while ago. Anyway, to hunny, even thou I don't know you that much, just wanna say this, be strong alright? I'm sure thing's will be fine. Let's just pray for the best. You and Ijan make a great couple. :)

Been really active in youtube thou. It's amazing how much talent those people in youtube have. Grrrrr. I'm so deeply in love with music. There's so much to learn from. I'm pretty much intimidated by those singers. Especially people like Aj Rafael, Albert posis, Mark Mejia,cathy nguyen,Bao le. I'm sure they'll make it big in the future. I adore all of this guys. They're awesome. You should check them out too alright!

Here are some of em'.

Fucken awesome! :)
I'll be back blogging soon yawrr! Wait up fo me. Anyhooo, there's an upsurge of noise going around here. Grrrr!

Byee! :)

2009-05-22T16:00:00.002+08:00

Hi hi ! been long , been long ! miss me ? bet you do ! hahah .
so life's been as per normal. been busy. so yea, boyf's back !
miss shaa and yana!
also alif and the rest.
prepaid low! anything text , but i cnt reply .

anyhooo, will blog soon!
take care.

and it's sad to know that david cook's brother, Adam cook has died from cancer. R.I.P Adam cook.

Mark!

2009-04-14T23:38:00.002+08:00

Heh heh hello! Random. I'm feeling very bored right now. anyhoos, I got a big suprise from my boyfriend! Haha can't wait can't wait! Okay shut.

I miss being in secondary school! Miss wearing the uniform. Haha. I miss a lot of people from my school. I can't wait for family day! I maybe going. we'll see about that. Nothing much to say! My blogger is getting more and more crap. I don't have much to say everyday. My life's not interesting. Hahah. It's okay. I'll just update when I have something interesting to say okay? Ahhhhh.

Okaybye!

It takes two to lie.

2009-04-14T13:26:00.002+08:00

VERY VERY OLD PICTURE. MISS MY OLD HAIR!! FUCKISHHH.
Hi! Been reading my past post. Woaaah. a lot of old pictures. Hahah. But somehow I find it nice. heh.
So yeaaah, just finish browsing through Irah's multiply. There's really a lot of pictures. I'm sure they all had fun. How I wish I can go eh. Macam fun gitu seh.

Uh nothing more to say. Miss my boyfriend. where is he? Busy much.

Toodles!

You can talk all you want.

2009-04-12T15:56:00.003+08:00

I'm unstoppable, unstoppable! hahaha. addicted to that song.

Oh hi there! Do I have anything to say?
Nothing! Just wanna say I miss my boyfriend, Yana and Shaa,KSH crew, Alif and the rest ! <3

Random. Peace. Period.

Sumpah I love you!

2009-04-07T00:26:00.002+08:00

Dull day. Nothing much to do thou. Just sitting at home watching "Friends" over and over again. Amazingly, I don't feel bored watching it for like a million times. -_- arggh, whatever. So didn't talk to boyfriend for th whole of today. Cos he's busy maybe. Well it's okay. I'm not that demanding. I can't wait to meet my two best friends this week. Picnic babies?! :D goreng2 eh Shaaaa. Hahaha. Wheee.

anyway, texted esofi yesterday. I miss him and the rest of my KSH brothers. Sorry guys for not coming down. Wanted to hang out today. But they were all working already. Anyway thanks esofi bro, for understanding. I love you and all my KSH brothers a lot. Terribly sorry. <3

And I miss Alif bestie,Kiyah and the rest the rest the rest! Urggggh. I shud manage my time well. And my money well. So I can spend some equal time with all my friends so they won't be any clash. Grrr. Anyway Rynn honey, let's meet soon too!

I got so many people to meet and catch up with. Blame myself for always going MIA. HAHAH. I'm so not gonna let this happen again! [serik sakkkk!]

okay laaaa that's pretty much it. Bye!

Su su suicide.

2009-04-06T13:25:00.003+08:00

Hi ! Here are some pictures on Friday(ajie's bday!)

Some are by Ira and some are by Sofie. Thanks you both! :)

I love you!

2009-04-05T22:32:00.004+08:00

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND SO MUCH!
COME HOME SOON BABY! I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY! :) MWAH!

5th april!

2009-04-05T01:06:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY ANAA SIS! STUDY HARD! I LOVE YOU! MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!

Greatness!

2009-04-04T15:43:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY AJIE! Sorry didn't bought any presents for you. But your expression was really happy! :D Smile always!

Ah yesterday was fun! Met Shaa at amk last cabin as usual. Went to town. Ate then walk around. Went city hall. Then went to UOB for ajie's birthday. Hang out after that. Took pictures. That's all. Pretty tiring thou. But I had major fun! It wasn't awkward anymore with all of them. Used to be fucking shy. Hhaha.

kay bye!

You're just a boy.

2009-04-02T14:47:00.002+08:00

Went out with mommy yesterday. Nothing much. Tomorrow meeting Nurul for job interview. then going admiralty to meet alif then meet my KSH CREW! fucking miss them. So not much to say though. Maybe meeting Shaa on Saturday. Hmm hmm hmm. Fed upppp. Bout something. Tired. Bout something. Cant be bothered. Bout something. Alaaah. As long as I'm happy, that's all that matters right? :D

okay that's all!

Th voice within.

2009-03-30T14:16:00.003+08:00

OLD picture!
Saturday was fun fun fun fun! Met Shaa and Yana,went to town. Ate and hang around, picture taking. Then round 6plus walk all th way to Raffles City UOB. Woowww. Very tiring. Reach round 8plus and by the time th place was kinda dark. Due to the earth day thingy. Haha. Hang out with Faris and th rest. Mussy was really funny. He kept making everybody laugh. I had a great day thou. Yana's not gonna make it this Saturday, cos she'll be going out with her work friends. Maybe I'll meet Shaa. Hmmph, there's gonna be a birthday thing on Fridayyy. Shaa's going. Shud I go? Not sure. Will let her knoww. On 11th april, Yana, Shaa and I, are going to Sentosa. For picnic? Not planned yet. Yana wanna gooo. Heh heh. And on 6th April, I'm gonna meet Rynn baby! Hanging out at Admiralty with th KSH crew! I fucking miss those guys man! Sorry for not hanging out for so long. Boyf's missing. ahahaha. Guess he's busy. He's coming home soon I guess. Shall just wait for his msg or call. Okay that's all. Gotta go!

2009-03-27T19:05:00.002+08:00

Hallaaawww, wassup!

Feeling really bored tuhday! Went out with mommy awhile ago to buy some grocery stuffs.
Th things were really heavy! Okay tomorrow meeting Yana and Shaa! Yaayyyy! Miss them so much. Still broke, but my mom top up my ez link and I got a few bucks to spare for tomorrow! Hahaha. Orang pooorr marhhh! Hahah , its okay I'm happy with my life! I'm so gonna have fun tomorrow! My boyfriend dah sombong! HAHAHA. I guess he's busy. Its alright. He's got his own life man. So yeaaah.

that's all. TATA!

Have a great weekend!

ps: I love Rin on the Rox!

I told you so.

2009-03-22T01:16:00.003+08:00

Heylooo baby! Life's been kinda dull thou, w/o my boyf. But been really great somehow. Thanks to my two bestest friends, Yana and Shaa. Really miss the KSH crew! Really hope I have the money to meet them! Broke at the mo. Alrighty nothing more tuh say! Boyfriend's coming back after 10 april, as his dad's birthday is on 10th april. Nevermind, I wish I could be there to celebrate daddy's birthday. uhhuhh. that's all. take care.
bye!

enjoy life okay people!

Pictures of you, pictures of me.

2009-03-03T18:49:00.002+08:00

Changed the blogskin! love it. :D
Missing my boyfriend!
And I love my blog song!

Meeting Kelly tomorrow for job hunting! Meeting Shaa and Yana on Friday!
Its been long since I met this girls! <3

That's all. Bye!

Halo

2009-03-01T20:28:00.004+08:00

a random photo taken when we all got our tounge piercing tuhgether.(except for esofi and kak long)that's half of KSH CREW! LOVE THEM!
Hiiiii, how's it goin?!

I'm dying of boredom.
Boyfriend, where are you? I miss you a lot! Call me soon. (if you can read this)
I'm sure my boyf's busy. GRRR.

nth much tuh say thou! byee!

undo.

2009-02-23T14:33:00.003+08:00

Holla everyone! it's been very long. I'm at bf's house now. Tomorrow baby's leaving for philippines. for a month. gahhh. gonna miss him again. What more, i can't celebrate his birthday which is on 9th march, together with him. take care of yourself there alright baby.

alrighty thats all. i love my family, my boyf+his family,KSH CREW and auntie su+uncle+yayan a lot! i've got a big family yawww. and i treasure each and everyone of them!

next to you, and you next to me.

2008-11-25T19:30:00.002+08:00

hi, it's been kinda long since i last logged in my blogger. well, my computer's been sick for a few months already. so yeaa, don't mind me for not blogging.

life's been miserable without my boyfriend. he's in philipines now. and i really hope he'll be coming back soon. pls come back soon baby. im really missing you so much. sighs. but still, im thankful that i still got my family. so i'm always at home 24hours. watching tv, spending time with my family. it feels rather nice since im not always with my family due to some reasons. but my life is still not complete without my baby. it's hard for me to contact him since I don't have any prepaid in my sim card. im going to top it up real soon so i can contact my baby. we've been contacting through friendster, msn. phone calls through isafi's phone. thanks isafi. well, i can't always be using his hp right? i think me and mark finished up his internation call prepaid cos we talked too long. sorry isafi for troubling you. I miss my boyfriend so much. and i also miss irah, sulaimi, isafi, iskandar, iski, izad and bie. really miss you all. i'll see you guys soon okay. not ready for the time being. don't have the mood though. hope you are all doing fine.just take care of yourselves. I'm kinda beat right now. I'm waiting for my baby to be online. but there's no sign of him at all. hope he'll be online soon. if not, it'll be another day without talking to him. ): take care of yourself baby.

if you're reading this baby, im just hoping that you're okay. i will be fine. don't worry about me. im just missing you too much. i really hope you'd come back soon. okay baby? forget me not. i'll always be right here waiting for you. always. don't worry bout that. i'll always be your girl. i don't want to leave you. i can't imagine how my life would be without you by my side. i'm waiting here. do take care. i miss you so much. and i love you really a lot.

I guess that's all i've gotta say bloggers.
take care.

bye. )):

Been long.

2008-09-14T23:35:00.003+08:00

Hey ! It's been long. really long. :D

I've been great. life's really great. I love those people around me. Especially my family and my dearest hubby!

I've nothing much to say. Will update soon!
Currently inactive in the world of cyber. haha!
take care!

2008-08-08T21:42:00.004+08:00

Hello , it's been long!

I've had a great week! Tomorrow's national day! Mom and sis are going to th parade. Mom is so excited. Her first time! I'm so happy that she's happy. :D Have fun there Mom and sis! As for me, I'm going out with boyfriend and my friends! Maybe meeting Yana too for awhile. :D gonna see a lot of my long lost friends there tomorrow fo'sure! :D wheeeeeeee.

Had fun just now. Went to Jericho youth centre with sis, boyfriend and my alif gorgeous! :D It was fun. Played x-box with sis and alif! While boyf played the guitar and drum with two guys down there. I'm happy that you had fun bby. :)

Lastly, Happy 10th monthsary baby. I'm happy that we could go this far. There's more anniversary to come right darling? :) I love you so much, yknow that? you mean everything to me. I can't lose you. Don't ever leave me. You're so special. I never loved any other guy this much before. I love you so much. Please make this last forever bby. <3

and let tha picthas do tha talking! :D

BYE!

I love you.

2008-07-30T12:57:00.001+08:00

Life's been great. 'm officially loving life. I love my boyfriend/adik/family/girlfriends/friends a lot! They make me happy. My life's suddenly feel so great and extra great with all of 'em. Thanks for everything. Especially boyfriend/adik/family. <333333

I'm so bored now. It's 1.04pm and my boyfriend's still snoring away I guess. Since he haven't called me yet. Boooo. I miss you syg. Our 10monthsary is coming soon. Cant wait. :D I love you so much baby. Faster wake up!

Alrighty thats all for now.
Take care!

2008-07-28T12:59:00.004+08:00

darling baby, if you're reading my blog now, im sorry for the last post. im sorry if any of my words, hurt you in any way. you know i love you so much right? i'll do anything for you. i will never betray you. you're so important to me. you're so special. you're so kind and sweet. i love you so much baby. forgive me for all my wrong doings. whatever i did to hurt you, you know i never meant any of them. all my harsh words came out from my mouth cos' i was too angry. forgive me darling. i love you. don't get angry okay? i want us to start a new life. i want you to be happy. and i want myself to be happy too. we could live a together forever. the only thing we have to do is trust each other. without trust, there's no relationship. i love you so much my dear. mwaaaaah.

A MOMENT LIKE THIS, SOME PEOPLE SEARCH FOREVER.
I THANK GOD THAT I GOT YOU IN MY LIFE, TILL THIS MOMENT.
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. I WILL TREASURE YOU TILL THE END, BABY.

2008-07-26T21:05:00.003+08:00

a moment like this, comes once in a lifetime.
so, treasure me now. Or regret later.
Imma girl who needs a lot of attention from a boyfriend.
I easily fall in love, and i don't want to easily get hurt, again. Sick and tired of getting hurt.
If there's anything you're not happy about, just tell me the truth. Don't hide your feelings.
I know I hide something from you. but I confess earlier on. I didn't tell you anything about it, cos' i don't want you to get worried. Some more, the thing is about family. Nothing much. You don't have to change your mood just because of that. It's not that I hurt you or tell you a lie about something. Or even betraying you. I will never do that. You know imma type of girl who will say ANYTHING when I'm angry. But you know I don't mean it. You know it right? Then quit questioning. I'm tired of fights sometimes. You always said that I started the fire first. Yes, I did. But why? Because you were not using your common sense sometimes and you will say one thing and after that say a different kinda thing. I don't understand you. Sigh. It's difficult for me. Like you always ask me, "What do you really want?". I don't even know what I want sometimes. As my boyfriend, you should know very well what I want. But I'm really trying to figure out what I really want. It's confusing. I know it's hard to let go of each other. Yes, it's hard for me too. Really hard. You yourself can see how was I trying to pull you back each time I said the word break up. I even cried. Sigh. I don't know what to do with this. I hope if you have any doubt about me or whatsoever, do let me know. Anything you're not happy about, just spit it out. Don't hide any feelings. As a couple, we are supposed to express our feelings. Never hide feelings and keep saying "nothing" when I ask what's wrong with you. And I won't brag too much on you not messaging or calling me. What I will do now is that, I will message you once. And if you didn't reply me at all, I will just wait and continue waiting. You take care. Have fun at your family gathering. I love you? yes I do.

Different.

2008-07-25T20:47:00.001+08:00

What if I told you it was all meant to be
Would you believe me
Would you agree
It's almost that feelin'
We've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come here now

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Ohh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this

Everything changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I maybe dreamin'
But 'till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Ohh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this

Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this

Some people wait a lifetime

For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Ohh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this

Ohh!
(A moment) Like this!

(A moment) Ohh!
I can't believe it's happening to me!

Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this

Ohh
Like this.

2008-07-24T18:48:00.001+08:00

haiz . i miss him ):

i miss you so.

2008-07-22T19:52:00.002+08:00

I miss my happy face boyfriend so much. He has not been smiling a lot for this past few days cos his grandpa just passed away. ): rest in peace papa.

and i would like to see my boyfriend smiling again, one day.

take care everyone.

One step at a time.

2008-07-20T20:25:00.002+08:00

I'm missing my baby so much. )): I can't take it. He's been busy cos his grandfather just passed away. Rest in peace papa. ): I love you, eventhough we met only once and we don't always met and talked a lot with each other. ): And to baby, please don't cry so much. Life have to move on. Papa will always think of you. He loves you so much. Cos you're th only grandson that he has got. I love you so much. I hope you'll be fine. ): please contact me soon. I miss you so much. ): I feel so sad and lonely. Like how you're feeling right now. Take care baby. Know that you always have me and your parents. ): mwah.

After months, I finally get to meet my two bestest girls on friday. We had fun. I miss them so much. Will meet them next friday too. I love you two so much okay. I'm sorry for everything. And thanks for still accepting me back despite me neglecting you both for months. Thanks. I love you girls. We will be like last time. Just contact me. Hugs!

Got nothing much to say. Baby won't be so free till wednesday. The funeral will end on tuesday. I hope we'll be back as per normal. And I hope he won't be so sad anymore. I love you so much dear. Do take care. Mwah.

Bye everyone!

stickwithyou.

2008-07-16T21:28:00.003+08:00

Helloo.

it's been long since i updated a proper post. So here you go.

life's been prettay awesome with the presence of my boyfriend and family. I'm enjoying every minute of it. I miss my two best friends. yana and shaa. I'm gonna meet them on this friday. Along with boyfriend. I'm gonna hug them so tight. We're sure gonna talk a lot about our lifes. We miss each other so much. Only god knows how much I miss and love them. Sorry for everything girlfriend. And also thanks for still caring and loving me even after months of me neglecting you both. Im sorry. I hope things will be fine. I hope I won't feel awkward or shy on this friday. I love you both so much. <3

Hmm, I guess that's all. Not much to say though.
HAHA, this is still not a very proper post. But it's okay.

Will update again. when im not lazy. Hah.
Take care people!

2008-07-12T22:11:00.002+08:00

update soon! blogger under construction.
tata!

i love baby.
i love family.
i love friends.
bye!

2008-06-25T00:40:00.004+08:00

nothing much to say . just plain bored.
sis going for camp tomorrow morning. gonna miss her, yup.
that's all .

and i miss my boyf.
i love my boyf.
i love my sis.
i love my mom and dad.
so so much!

byeee .

Forever you and me

2008-06-18T00:25:00.002+08:00

hey, it's been long .

been busy though. life's been pretty awesome for me, still. yeaaa. i love my family. i love my boyfriend. i love my two girlfriends, nunu'jepon and farah. and all my lovely friends. :)

to nunu'jepon. :

just don't care about what they are saying about you. they are still young. hah, "biar kite tue, asal kan mature". kan? haha. just stay calm. you still have me and all the other friends. okay? take care of yourself. thanks for always being there for me. love you. :)

alright, got nothing more to update. will just upload pictures. see ya.

2008-06-08T21:59:00.004+08:00

Hello fellow earthlings.

Went out with family today. Went to get a new handphone for dad at M1 shop at Ang Mo Kio. Then went to Adam Road to have our lunch. After which, proceeded back to Ang Mo Kio NTUC to buy a new microwave as our previous one was spoilt. That's all I did today.

Nothing more to update though. Tata.

Happy 8th Monthsary baby. I know I've hurt you a lot. But deep down inside my heart, you will always be the one that I would love forever. Your name has always be craved on my heart. You'll never be replaced. I love you so much. I'm sorry for hurting you. Thanks for everything you had done/given to me all this while.

estatic.

2008-06-02T10:53:00.002+08:00

Hey hi!

I'm feeling very happy. Not just very happy, ultimately happy. [:
Finally, I got a new handphone after a month of not having one. I bought Sony ericsson W910i. Sister bought Nokia express music 5610 if im not wrong. forget though. Mom bought a simple LG phone. Dad is still thinking whether to trade in his phone or not . Hha. Yesterday was a hell lot of fun. Went out with mom, sis and dad. Bought clothes, make ups, shoes, watch and more. But yea, it was a very tiring day .

Going out soon with mom later. To grocery shopping. So yeaaa.

Take care!

Ayat ayat cinta

2008-05-21T15:36:00.003+08:00

Hi.

Just finish watching ayat ayat cinta. It is really a very sad story. You guys should go and watch it. I cried while watching it. It's so sad. Rianti Cartwright is so pretty! same goes to Carissa Putri. Here's the synopsis I got from the website of ayat ayat cinta. I'm sure it will interest you people.

Ayat Ayat Cinta is a beautifully portrayed Islamic love story – a tale of a virtuous Muslim protagonist who overcomes all obstacles of life maintaining pure ideals.

Fahri bin Abdillah is a poor, intelligent student who wins a scholarship to complete his graduate degree at Egypt's esteemed Al Azhar University. Very disciplined and dedicated by nature, Fahri embraces his life in Cairo, completing his studies and translation of religious books with full enthusiasm, exactly according to pre-determined targets.

Only one goal is left unattempted: the pursuit of marriage.

For Fahri is innocent and pure, and doesn't believe in the concept of relationships prior to marriage. He is inarticulate and shy around women. All his life, only two women have been close to him – his mother and grandmother.

Life changes drastically in Egypt for he suddenly finds himself surrounded by four beautiful, distinctly different women.

Maria Girgis, a shy, open-minded Coptic-Christian neighbor who is attracted to the teachings of the Holy Al Quran, finds herself falling in love with Fahri (a fact she only reveals to her diary).

Nurul, a student at Al Azhar like Fahri, is the Muslim daughter of a renowned Indonesian cleric. Fahri feels unworthy of her and thus ignores his feelings for her, leaving her confused and guessing.

Noura, an abused Egyptian neighbor, develops strong romantic feelings for Fahri, who in turn simply sympathizes with her situation. His romantic rejection destroys her and eventually leads to a false accusation of rape.

Aisha, a German Turkish student in Cairo haunts Fahri with her beautiful eyes. Following an incident on the metro where Fahri defends her against narrow minded bigoted Muslims, both immediately develop feelings for each other.

As the story unravels, the protagonist makes the audience face the daunting decisions he himself faces, and forces us to marvel at his undying loyalty to the true ideals of Islam as he ultimately makes the choice of a lifetime.

It's really a very interesting movie. Im sure that I won't get tired of watching it. You guys can also go to the movie's website itself. http://www.ayatayatcintathemovie.com/

Well yeaa. Now I'm going to watch "the perfect man". Yaaaaaaaaaa. i love watching movies. Anyway, I wanna watch "CONGKAK"! grrrr. Soon kayy. Whee.

Kay bye!

My everything.

2008-05-19T14:45:00.003+08:00

Currently watching the movie titled "raise your voice" in youtube. starring hilary duff. It's a nice movie. And now im also talking to boyf in msn. Woooo. I miss him super duperly much. Gonna meet him later. Yayyy. Im so gonna hug and kiss him! :D whee. Anyway, this song is for my boyf. This song is so sweet. I love you bby.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=A7mDxYWqfL4 {watch it in youtube kay!}

The loneliness of nights alone
the search for strength to carry on
my every hope has seemed to die
my eyes had no more tears to cry
then like the sun shining up above
you surrounded me with your endless love
Coz all the things I couldn't see are now so clear to me

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams
are suddenly reality
you've opened up my heart to feel
a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that'll never fade
there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
for the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

You're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete
for all time (for all time)

You are my everything (you are my everything)
Nothing your love won't bring (nothing your love won't bring)
My life is yours alone (alone)
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through (your spirit pulls me through)
When nothing else will do (when nothing else will do)
Every night I pray (I pray)
On bended knee (on my knee)
That you will always be
be my everything

chorus repeats

[almost spoken:] Every night I pray
down on bended knee
that you will always be
my everything
oh my everything

This I swear.

2008-05-18T23:15:00.001+08:00

Hi all.

urgh, I really miss my bby so much. I hope you know how much I need you now. I don't mind you sitting around with your friends downstairs, but not too much. You know me right. I always think negatively. I feel that you care about your friends more than me. It's so sad that we are staying far from each other. How I wished I can always be there to see you. ):

My day was pretty dull. Nothing much to do at home. I spent most of my time watching movies with my sister in youtube. Kinda fun though. But not without talking to my boyf. ): I only listen to his voice once, today. Thats all. He is now having fun with his friends while I'm the one feeling left out. {i know you'd be angry if you know how I actually felt} Sigh, sigh and more sigh. I'm so bored now.

Anyhoos, I feel like opening a blogshop. I wanna sell my unwanted clothes so that I'd have money to buy new ones! Burhhh. Soon, maybe. Gah, I miss having my own handphoneeee. But I'm getting used to it though. It feels so good to not have a handphone that is always ringing when I'm not home yet. {well, who else. My mom of course. haha!} But, it feels so not good to get all so worried when I can't contact my boyf! But well, I'll getting a new one soon. I still want a sony ericsson handphone! :}

There's gonna be a cultural night next saturday!{my secondary school thingy} , and I think I'm going. Well, lets see 'bout that. It's gonna be held at NYJC at 7.30pm. And on the following day, there's gonna be a birthday party at ECP. Farah's and her sister's birthday party. And yes, I'm going with my sis. and boyf. But before that, we would be going to see a dance thingy at far east. Mark's friend told us that something is gonna be held down there. He said he's not performing. But he looks like he's lying.haha! Well let's just see kay Affad!

and, before I forget. Happy birthday suhanah!:)

I guess thats all I wanna say. But before that, i wanna dedicate this song to my bby. It's now playing in my blog anyway. :)
{Bby, y'know I love you a lot. Even though I don't say it much, y'know that I'd always love you. From the bottom of my heart, you'd always be the one and only for me. I love you, now and forever.}

You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it half as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

So whenever you get weary
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
Ohh we'll get there
This I swear.

boyfriend.

2008-05-17T03:18:00.000+08:00

When she walks away from you mad
[ Follow her ]

When she stares at your mouth
[ smile...then kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit’s you
[ hug her tight ]

When she starts cursing at you
[ say i love you ]

When she’s quiet
[ hold her hand and ask what's wrong ]

When she ignores you
[ act cute so she'll notice you ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ tell her you love her and she still
looks amazing ]

When you see her start crying
[hold her...ask her what's wrong]

When you see her walking
[ approach her..give a kiss on the
cheek. ]

When she’s scared
[assure her you're not goin to leave
her ]

When she lays her head on your
shoulder
[ tilt your head too..and hold her
hand ]

When she steals your favorite hat
[ let her keep it]

When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is
okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she loves you
[ she really does more than you could
understand ]

When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold hers and play with her
fingers ]

When she bumps into you
[ bump into her back and make her
laugh ]

When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]

When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if
shes not saying anything.

- When she’s mad hug her tight and
don’t
let go

- When she says she’s ok dont believe
it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she’ll remember
you:

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday
to
te ll her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after
you wake up

- Treat her like she’s all that matters
to you.

- Tease her and let her tease you back.

- Stay up all night with her when she’s
sick.
- Watch her favorite movie with her or
her favorite show even if you think its
stupid.
- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she’s bored and sad, hang out
with her.

- Let her know she’s important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up at you crying, the
first thing you say is;
“Who’s ass am I kicking babe?”

Guess what, I own a guy like that.
MY DEAREST MARK ANTHONY FERNANDEZ.
ILYSM. PLEASE CALL ME SOON.
MWAH.

Nights everyone.
I think, I will be updating tomorrow. So yea, just wait.
bye.

Ever ever after.

2008-05-10T15:46:00.001+08:00

I miss my bby so much.
bye.

Fake maniac.

2008-05-07T15:43:00.002+08:00

Ohmyyyy/

There is someone whom I really really need to blog about. She's so crappy. Uploading pictures which are fake and none of her pictures is HERSELF. Gosh. Is she crazy or smthg? I always burst out laughing each time I look at her so called "NEW PICTURES OF HERSELF". Like wht th hell. It's been months since me and my sis had been noticing her pictures. She was once a friend of my sister. So yeaaa. We know how she actually looks like. She even stay somewhere near to our house. Ahhhh, and one more thing written at her profile, which make me really laugh till I can even pee in my pans. She wrote something about "PEOPLE HAVE TO LEARN TO BE ORIGINAL" like duhh, you are not even original, YOURSELF. and you wrote that in your profile? Sound like a maniac. Hah, hope she realized it one day. Cus, people will be shock when they see you in real life. You look like none of your pictures in friendster. irritating siaa. ALL THE PICTURES ARE GIRLS FROM AMERICA/AUSTRALIA. Haha. Crazyyy.

Alrightyyy, that's all I wanna say. Okaaay bye!

2008-04-30T18:27:00.003+08:00

Currently listening to LOW, by Flo rida ft T-pain.
And also, waiting for hubby's phone call.

RAMDOM.

Nothing more to say.
Byeeeee.

2008-04-28T00:13:00.004+08:00

I'm so not into friendster and myspace anymore.
I'm so into my hubby.
I so love my family.
They are just so important to me.
The only people that I need for now.

Period.

Will blog once a while. I love my hubby and my family so muchhhh.

Quote of the day - "The best proof of love is trust"

2008-04-26T02:21:00.002+08:00

DUDUK KAT BAWAH BLOCK ABEH TAK INGAT AKU!
EEEEEE, BENCI!

NOT IN THE MOOD AT ALL.

When you look me in the eyes.

2008-04-16T12:41:00.002+08:00

MUKE TAK PERLU SEH, ENAA!

Hellooooo.

ROARRRR. JONAS BROTHER IS ON MTV! THEY ARE SO UNBELIEVABLY CUTE AND AWESOME! I WANNA SEE THEM! :DDDDD

Well, life's been good. I hate having quarrels with baby. ): it always makes me cry. I'm so sensitive, y'know. Sigh. I really don't wish to have any quarrels with him anymore. It just sucks. Anyway, I'm not using handphone for the moment. Will get a new handphone and a new number soon. So yeaaa, will contact you guys when I get my new number.

Boyfriend is starting his old hobby, SKATING! He look so hot when he skate. My boyfriend is very talented you knowwwww. He is good at playing drum and guitar. whee whee wheee. Am I lucky or whatttt to have a boyfriend like him. Heh heh. :D

Aaaaah, kinda miss having a handphone though. Feels so empty without it. Never mind. At least I won't always call and message and make my handphone bill go up up upppp.

Alright, nothing more to sayyyyyy.
TATA!

MISS ME OKAY? :) BYEEE.

Time of your life.

2008-04-06T02:27:00.013+08:00

HEY YAWWW.

It's 2.09am now and I'm still wide awake. Can't get to sleep though. Just that my body is aching now. But my eyes aren't sleepy yet. Had fun for the past few days. Went out with sis and boyfriend. Tomorrow's I'm going out with my family. So yeyyy! Life's been very awesome.

I don't really have anything to blog nowadays. My blog is becoming more and more dull. But who cares. I'll blog something interesting when I have something to blog about. By the wayyyyyyyyy, I know I have cute chubby ankles. HAHAHA.

I LOVE MY FAMILY, MY ADIK AND MY BOYFRIEND TO THE VERY COREEEEEEE.

BYEEEEEEEEEE.

I will relink you people soon okayyyy.

2008-04-05T12:41:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ADIK NANA.
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE.
STUDY HARD OKAYYYYYYYYYYY!
I LOVE YOU [:

Forever with you

2008-03-28T14:07:00.010+08:00

OH MY GODDDDD!
I'M REALLY VERY IN LOVE WITH CHRIS BROWN SONG, TITLED "WITH YOU".
IT'S FUCKING NICE. BUT BOYFRIEND DOESN'T LIKE IT. ):
UUUUUH, WHATEVER IT IS, I STILL LOVE THAT SONG A LOT!
BEEN LISTENING TO IT LIKE GOD KNOWS HOW MANY TIMES.
WHEEEE. CHRIS BROWN IS HOT HOT. PLEASE COME TO SINGAPORE ONE DAY. [:
I WILL ATTEND THE CONCERT YAAWWWW! HEH HEHH.

and oh, I love Ramiele Malubay from American Idol season 7. She's so gorgeous. :D
and not to forget David Archuleta! He's so cuteeeeeeeeeeee. Uh, David cook is awesome too. He's hot. Rocker oiiii.

Kay, currently at home. Going out later at around 4.30pm.

Uh, nothing much to say now.
Guess I'll be going off.
Byeeeee.

I love you.

2008-03-28T02:02:00.003+08:00

You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Boy, you're my all.

I'm into you,
And boy,
No one else would do,
'cause with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of their life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm

With you [5x]

I don't want nobody else,
Without you, there's no one left then,
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,
Say you care for me,
You know I care for you,
You know...that I'll be true,
You know that I won't lie,
You know that I would try,
To be your everything...

And I..
Will never try to deny,
that you're my whole life,
'cause if you ever let me go,
I would die..
So I won't front,
I don't need another man.
I just need your all and nothing,
'cause if I got that,
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day

change some part of the lyrics though.
this is for my baby laaa. :D

kaybye!

With you.

2008-03-28T00:59:00.006+08:00

Bored. Sleepy. Random.
Saw kelly just now at Yishun. God, I miss her. A lottttttttttttttttt. Meeting her this coming monday. And as for my girlfriends, maybe I'll be meeting them next friday. I'll see about that huhhh.

I miss my boyfriend.
):

that's all.
bye.

im still not talking to dad.
Sigh. You got a lot of excuses ehhhhhh dad.

I LOVE MY BABY.
magandang gabe!(goodnight in phillipines) :p

Breathless.

2008-03-16T21:57:00.007+08:00

I JUST WANNA BE THE ENAA. THE ENAA THAT IS ALWAYS LEADING A HAPPY LIFE WITH HER LOVED ONES. )':

I'm feeling very depressed at the moment. Too much problems in my head. I will summarize everything up, NOW. I have no one to turn to now.

#1 - FAMILY.

I love my family. Will always. Forever. I will never leave them.
I just don't believe what is actually happening. When I found out about this, I was utterly disappointed with you. How could you?! Why? Why are you like this? I respect you all this while. Respect you as a man who had been taking care of the family all this while. WHY? Tell me why! I don't wanna expose this truth to mom. I don't want her to get hurt. But, how long can this truth be hidden? How I wished I was brave enough to talk to you about this. Yes, how I wished. I really hope you could change. Please. Stop hurting mom. Please, I beg you. She doesn't deserve this at all. She maybe such a nagging person but deep inside, she's a very nice woman. You know she's sick. Why must you make things worst for her? She had had enough. She deserves the best. She took good care of the house and all. Most of all, I AM VERY VERY ANGRY WITH THAT WHORE/SLUT/BITCH YOU ARE ACTUALLY DATING. IF I GET ANY CHANCE TO MEET HER, I WILL GIVE HER A PUNCH/SLAP ON HER FACE AND A KICK ON HER PUSSY/STOMACH AND WHEREVER THAT IS APPLICABLE. WHY MUST YOU DATE HIM? IS THERE NO OTHER GUYS OUT THERE FOR YOU TO DATE? OOOHHH, OR ARE YOU JUST USING HIM OR SOMETHING? OH YAAA, HE'S GONNA GET HIS CPF SOON RIGHT? SO YOU WERE THINKING OF TAKING HIS MONEY YEA? AND LET HIM SPEND IT ON YOU? WELL NO WAY! I WON'T LET THAT HAPPEN. YOU FUCKING WHORE! I HOPE YOU WILL CHOKE TO DEATH! YOU WILL NEVER HAVE A GOOD LIFE FOR DATING A MAN WHO IS ALREADY MARRIED. YOU ARE RUINING THE MARRIAGE! ALLAH WILL NOT LET YOU CONTINUE IT! NEVER WILL! I HATE YOU WHORE! I HATE YOU! LAST TIME YOU WANNA DATE MY BROTHER, BUT YOU WERE REJECTED. NOW, MY FATHER? WHAT? IS THIS SOME KIND OF JOKE? AREN'T YOU PRETTY/NICE ENOUGH FOR OTHER GUYS THERE?! YOU ARE SUCH A SLUT. DIE BITCH , DIE! Okay, enough of this! I'm crying! It just breaks my heart! I love my mom! I love you, my dad! I love my siblings! I love my family! I miss abang. I miss my nephew, Hafiz and wawan. I miss my two kakak. )':

#2-
Relationship.

I love you, forever.
Had a tiff with him a while ago. Since just now. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just too depressed with all the problems. But you just don't understand. I mean, you know what I mean when I talk about some things. But you act like you don't understand. Please stop all your pretending for now. I'm not in the mood for it. You know I got a lot of things to think of. Not only you, you know. Please understand. I've been thinking so much for you. I can't always think for you and not care for the other problems that I have. Look, I know you are scared to lose me. I know you love me a lot. I feel the same way too. I'm also very very angry with your dad. About what he said last night. It still wanders in my mind. I'm like an outsider. Always being thrown out of the house. I'm like the cause of everything. I hope you will do your CSO. Don't concentrate too much on me. I'm like distracting you. After everything has been done, we can enjoy ourselves like last time. But for now, concentrate more on your CSO and less on me. I don't want to be the cause of everything. I called you stupid because you were acting stupid! please! stop it! I'm all so paranoid, you know! If I say, I don't want to call or I'm doing something else and I will call you back, please listen to it! Don't make me angry! Don't force me! I don't like being force! Enough of all this!

#3-
Friends

The bestest. <3
I don't know what to do with this situation. Should I get back to them? My two wonderful girls who had always been there for me. 5 years for Shaa and 10 years for Yana. I appreciate every single thing you had done for me girls. I love you girls a lot. Let me think about it. I will try my best to make a schedule. I will make time for you girls. Hope to meet you girls one day. Soon, okay. I miss you girls so much. Take good care of yourself. Know that I will always be there for you. Always love you girls. <3

#4-
Used to be

I miss it,really.
Well, this is not really a problem to me. But just now, when I was bloghopping, I came across Haziq's blog. One of my best friend last time. I miss all those times I had with Haziq, Suhana and Aisha. I really miss it a lot. How I wish we could go back to how we used to be. Our friendship ended because of just a small thing. It really saddens me till now. We criticize each other to the very core. Look at each other with hatred. I really hope we can get back. But what else can I do? I don't think you guys want things to be as per normal again. Too much things happened, I know. But if I could, I would turn back to those times that we are together. Happily together. Sharing everything together. I miss hugging all of you. I miss those picture taking. I miss all of you. But, things doesn't turn out the way I want it to be. Just like my mom say, I can't have everything I want. Just hope you guys are fine. Lastly, take care.

I'M JUST TOO DEPRESSED, EVERYONE. I'M VERY VERY DEPRESSED! PLEASE UNDERSTAND! PLEASE, I BEG YOU! STOP PESTERING ME! I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE! SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO RUN AWAY FROM ALL THIS THING! IT'S JUST TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE! )':

Just wanna say that I love my family, my adik, my boyfriend, my two girlfriends,Zafirah and all my friends. I miss you all.

And as for now,leave me alone. I need some time alone. All I need now, is my adik and my mom.
THAT'S ALL.
LEAVE ME ALONE FOR NOW.

I'm sorry, you. I don't have to mood to talk to you.
Hope you understand. (for my boyfriend.)

Bye.

One in a million

2008-03-14T01:23:00.002+08:00

How did I get here?
I turned around and there you were
I didn't think twice
or rationalize
cause somehow I knew
that there was more than just chemistry
I mean I knew you were kinda into me
but I figured it's too good to be true

I said pinch me
where's the catch this time
can't find a single cloud in the sky
help me before I get used to this guy

(CHORUS)

They say that good things take time
but really great things happen
in a blink of an eye
thought of the chances to meet somebody like you
were million to one
I can't believe (oh woah)
you're one in a million
All this time I was looking for love
trying make this work
they weren't good enough till
I thought I'm through
said I'm done
and stumbled into the arms of the one

You making me laugh about the silliest stuff
said that I'm your diamond in the rough
when I'm mad at you
you come with your velvet touch
can't believe that I'm so lucky
I have never felt so happy
everytime I see that sparkle in your eyes

(CHORUS)
They said that good things take time
but really great things happen
in a blink of an eye
thought of the chances to meet somebody like you
were million to one
I can't believe it (oh woah)
you're one in a million
(yeah yeah)
All this time I was looking for love
trying make things work
they weren't good enough till
I thought I'm through
said I'm done
and stumbled into the arms of the one

I said pinch me
where's the catch this time
can't find a single cloud in the sky
help me before I get used to this guy

(CHORUS)

They said that good things take time
but really great things happen
in a blink of an eye
thought of the chances to meet somebody like you
were million to one
I can't believe it
(oh woah oh yeah yeah!!)
They said that good things take time
but really great things happen
in a blink of an eye
thought of the chances to meet somebody like you
were million to one
I can't believe it (oh woah)
you're one in a million
(yeah one in a million,
yeah you're one in a million!)

New chapter.

2008-03-13T23:48:00.001+08:00

HELLO HELLO!

New blog. New life. Everything's new. I wish to forget about all the life that I had in the past. Well, they might think that I'm neglecting them. The fact is that, I just don't feel good when my boyfriend is not around with me. It just feels so weird. I don't know. I know that I'm treating you girls like shit. My apologies. But, I'm really sorry. If I could, I want to go back to you girls like last time. But the fact that I have to bring my boyfriend along won't make you girls happy. I know you both don't like it. I'm sorry. Just treat it as if I'm hopelessly so devoted to my boyfriend. Just treat it as if Enaa has change. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I read Shaa's blog. I even cried. I received quite a number of Yana's message. But I'm just to ashamed to even reply 'em. I don't know. I don't know what's with me. Whatever it is, I still love you both. I know you both have always been there for me for the past few years. Especially Yana. I appreciate every single thing you both had done for me. Thanks for all those good times. Those laughter,jokes,gossips,outings. All those are still kept inside my heart. You both will always be my bestest. And if you guys don't know, my boyfriend is a very lonely guy. His family are all working. He is always alone. So I really can't bear to see him sitting all alone at home. He got quite a number of friends in his hometown. But he doesn't really like to sit around under the void decks doing irrelevant stuffs with 'em. I'm really sorry Yana and Shaa. Really sorry. I LOVE YOU BOTH FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I REALLY DO. I'm sorry once again. )':

As for my dearest boyfriend, please don't feel bad about this. I love you so much. And I love my girlfriends too. Sometimes, when I want to go back to them, I feel ashamed. Deeply ashamed. I've been neglecting them for months and it's like, if I go back to them now.. it's gonna be really weird. Its like I'm treating them as papers. When I want them, I will go to them. When I don't need them, I will throw them away. I'm not like that. And I don't want the situation to be like that. I'm just ashamed though. Grr. Don't know what else to say.

Life's been awesome. It's great. And one more thing, in case you guys don't know, I've quited school. I just don't have the interest. I don't wanna regret later. So might as well I quit now. I'm currently looking for a job. I'm gonna work for this whole year. And as for next year, I'm gonna take private O levels. I don't feel like schooling this year. So yea. Hubby is going to do his CSO starting for next week. You better go eh b! Takmo degil. If not I don't wanna meet you anymore. :p Heh heh. Can't wait for my boyfriend to finish his probation on October 10th. Still long way to go eh! Heh heh. And my brother will be released on October 25th. So he can meet my boyfriend! ;D Just can't for all this. Hope my brother will change when he is being released. Yeaa, hope so.

Currently drinking carrot juice and chatting with boyfriend in msn. And oh, I changed my number already! I meaaaan, only some people know. Cause it's just my current number. Gonna change again soon. My previous line was cut off cause I used to much of it and my mom wouldn't pay for it. HAHA. :p This is my second time and I'm not gonna let it happen again.

Alrighttttt, I'm missing my boyfriend now. I'm missing my mummy Fernandez too.
Tomorrow I'm going to Bishan Ite to sign some paper involving my consideration for quiting school. Going at around 10am. Boyfriend's coming along with me maybe. Hope so. :D

Okay that's a long post. It's been quite some time since I typed a long post like this.
Uhh that's all for today. Will update when I'm not lazy.
Take care! Misses!

I don't care what's gonna happen,
cause every sacrifice that I do,
Is all for you,
my one and only boo.